Sat, 31 Jan 2009 20:52:16 GMT

im really stupid, just so you know.

Mon, 12 Jan 2009 03:14:25 GMT

i have somehow acquired the beginnings of a life. im so manic recently.
it is over, really really over, and i am okay.
my bouts of articulation are incredibly irregular these days, and i feel like i am using too many explanation points for people to take me seriously, and i am using them in a strange unconscious attempt to make me seem more alright than i really am.

i got accepted to hollins university and will be attending there in the fall as long as i keep my grades up (which isn't garunteed) i should really be more excited about this, but i think thats just the way it works with early decision, there was less build up to it so it hasn't really sunken in yet. this time next year i'll be working on my j term, either doing some crazy activities on campus, studying in a foregin country, or doing an internship in some city, and that will make the fact that i am going to college fifteen minutes away from my house less daunting. i feel like if circumstances had been different two months ago and had not been changing so rapidly i wouldn't have applied early and instead i would be moving to a different town or a different state that isn't just fifteen minutes from this apartment. but i have to live with that now so i'm going to make the best of this. it really is in many ways the perfect school for me. despite the poeticness of it, i wish it weren't an all girls school.

sometimes i think of the twisted security i had in the last two years, just the mundane and habitual actions that formed my life. and i begin to become overcome with sadness, and i have to remind myself that the person who provided me with that security is dead, and there is no point in missing who has taken over that body, because he is a stranger and you can't possibly miss a stranger. it reminds me of the third harry potter (cheesy i know) when lupin or whatever his name is turns into a werewolf. the only difference is that my werewolf isn't going to change back into a human when the sun comes up. and i am telling myself i am okay with that, and a lot of the time it is true.

but i've been living...

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 02:52:30 GMT

it's over.
i am free.

This is Molly. (post seedmouth)

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 02:09:04 GMT

you know the drill

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This is Molly. (post seedmouth)